R.I.P.

My nana, my mom's mom, passed away on Friday. She had been sick for a while, so...she was 93, almost 94.

I'm still out on how I really feel. She was never a wonderful nana to us. That side of the family is all nutso, it makes me glad I'm not actually blood related to them (My mom was adopted).

The funeral is wednesday and the burial is thursday.

I have a lot of school work to get done before I go back on sunday.

In graphic news, I made some new avatars.


#1 is lyrics from The Storm's song "Wall of Shame" from their album 'Black Luck'.
#2 is lyrics from The Storm's song "B.S.E." from their album 'Black Luck'.

Yes I am doing that "Emo" bullshit, I can feel if I want to!!

I'm all about the Growing Up Cullen stuff. GUC is a funny little thing that two girls came up with, which you can read here: http://oxymoronassoc.livejournal.com/tag/creative:+growing+up+cullen

It's the funniest shit I've read in a long time. I think they get all of the characters spot on. Stephanie Meyer (or however you spell her freaking name) should read it and learn a thing or two.

Today is Christmas Eve. So, Merry Christmas and happy holidays to you all. I'm actually quite...sad. Usually I find christmas to be a very great holiday. But this year, all I can think about is how badly I've messed up in school. I failed a class. I'm too chicken shit to check to see if I failed the other class I was worried about. I probably did. Why? BECAUSE MY LIFE SUCKS. When something goes wrong, a million things go wrong at once. Isn't that one of Newton's laws? It should be. It seems to be how life goes. For me, at least.

I just want to get into the Army and get away from this stupid school.

I got my school ring earlier than I thought I would. I also got my senior pictures earlier than I thought I would. I'll post both next week. I'm still trying to find my cord to hook my camera up to my computer.

Well, I'm finally off to bed. Good night!

Oh Really?

You know, I'm really pissed off with how my sister's in-laws are treating her and Pingo. Seriously? Fine, you want to not like Marine chick, ok, I can get that, but to turn your back on your grandchild? Fuck that. I swear, the in-laws better hope they never run into me cause I'll let them know how it goes. You may not like someone, but you sure as hell should respect, especially when they're family. Cause NEWSFLASH, Marine Chick and her dude aren't divorced, she's still his wife, she's still (and always will be) the mother of his son. That alone means she is worthy of decency. But then again, we are talking about a family who has no respect for anyone else. They let people walk all over them and talk shit about people behind their backs.

I've got no respect for any of those people and if I never saw them again it would be a day too soon. I've never liked any of them and I never will. I respect my sisters decision and choices, but crap man, she deserves someone who will actually give a crap about her. Not this douchenugget who shouldn't even be a Marine. He needs to man up and grow a pair before a 95 lb girl kicks his ass.

My sister has stuck up for me my whole life, I'm more than willing to return the favor.

And now in happy news, I took a better picture of my hair.


And also, I'm totally in love with Metallica right now and the only reason I'm currently not listening to Metallica is because my Storm CD came in the mail on Monday, so I've been listening to that for two days. It's SIGNED! THEY SIGNED IT! SERIOUSLY? AMAZING!!!! I will no longer complain that it cost me $30. THEY FREAKING SIGNED IT YA'LL!!! I <3 The Storm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. They've seriously moved into my top 5. Black Luck is an awesome CD.

But anyways, Metallica. Right, so Metallica. <3 this band. I <3 Death Magnetic.

Dudes, Papa Het (James Hetfield, singer of Metallica for the sadly uninformed) is my dad's age, 46, and still looks amazing.


I'm throwing this picture in because it makes me smile.

I <3 METALLICA!!!

That was just your life.

New Haircolor

I got my hair dyed today. It's not as bright as I'd like it, but I do loooooove the color.

I'm Such a Fool

Tomorrow morning at 10am, I'll be meeting with an Army Recruiter to discuss my options as an Officer in the U.S. Army.

I'm just joining the army so I can still have a Military I.D., get to live on base (and thus have access to cheaper things and no sales tax and cheap movies), wear a uniform, meet hot guys in equally hot uniforms, work on my rifle skills, have my dad salute me while completely ignoring I have to salute my brother (I just won't look at him when he's in uniform), get out of BUTTFUCK OHIO, move to the beautiful south (If I get stuck north, I'll bitch until I get my transfer), get $3000 a month (and that's just for starters), have a chance to travel, and, lastly, have the army pay off my ridiculous school loans.

And, the number one reason of all: To serve my country with honor and valor.

I'm going to be devestated if I don't get in. Which means I'm going to have to change a few things. I'm going to need to start working out more (pull-ups are a bitch), I'm going to need to learn to eat a meal quickly, I need to eat more and better, and I'm going to have to learn not to cry when someone yells at me.

And I'm going to have to start getting up at 6am. YUCK.

I'm going home for Thanksgiving Break tomorrow around noon. I can't wait. Even though I have like 6 papers to write and a bunch of other shit to do. I can't wait until the semester is over.

Oh, I got my hair cut again.



Essentially, what I got cut was the right side of my head, as seen in picture #1, and the back. When the left side grows out more, it'll look better.

And I promise I will update soon about the Metallica concert a few weeks ago. I'll post a couple of my videos so you can cringe at my singing voice.

10 Things I Hate About Michigan

1. WHO DESIGNS A FREAKING ENTRANCE AND EXIT RAMP TO COLLIDE??
2. Your roads suck. Big time.
3. Nothing good on the radio.
4. Deers.
5. Deers running into cars.
6. Not enough lighting so I can see aforementioned deers.
7. YOUR ROADS ARE HORRIBLE.
8. Your cop cars are too cool.
9. Grand Rapids is a horrible excuse for a city. Do something about it.
10. Did I mention I really don't like your roads?

I will be posting about my wonderful time in Grand Rapids later. Right now, I'm watching my videos from last night and writing a paper about the military. Woo.

Oh yeah!

Good news all around. I only owe $500 to the school and as soon as I turn in this stupid paper, I should be getting $500. So then I'll be able to sign up for classes.

in one week, Afro and I will be in Grand Rapids to see Volbeat and Metallica! I am beyond estatic! I cannot wait to see Volbeat! Too bad they're only playing 8 songs, but ya'll can bet I'll be screaming my lungs out from row 201! Metallica should be more than amazing, so I've heard.

And then in February, I'll be heading to Cleveland for the first time to meet Epica! I cannot wait to get my hands on their new CD. Their concert should be amazing!

And then in March, I'll be going to St. Louis to see my sister for Spring Break. And While i'm there, hopefully she and I will be going to see Flogging Molly! FM just announced their 2010 tour dates. They'll be in St. Louis on March 10th, which is the near the end of my spring break. Perfect! Since Marine Chick wasn't able to make it to the Volbeat/Metallica show with me, we can go see Flogging Molly together. It'll be 10 times cheaper (only $28) and we'll be much closer to the band! I can't wait to find out who is opening for FM. Hopefully it's someone I know!

So yeah. God is providing. It took a while for the sun to shine, but here it is!